Why am I typing this? I guess because I can use this as a way to push my stupid thoughts out into the vast, toxic slime pits of the internet so they can be washed away and forgotten or repressed back inside me where I will keep them bottled up until they eventually explode again and I make another post like this, maybe a week from now, a month or even a year.
But maybe that time I'll actually do something about it. It doesn't matter though, because nobody reads this but it feels good to release it publicly as if I am talking to a friend, or another human being that cares about me. So If you are reading this, thanks. I guess.